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everyonehasamnesia:

As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, one thing that’s been helping me grapple with the intense shame I have over all my “wasted potential” is accepting that potential doesn’t exist and never did.

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.

And if you have ADHD, I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you do not have limitless potential confounded by your laziness. You have the good potential of a good person, and you can access it with practice and work, but do not accept the story that you are choosing not to be all that you are or can be. You are just a human person.

lavenderarts:

Super WIP but I’m in Naruto withdrawal and I’m BEGGING to know why Iruka didn’t just fucking adopt him and let him come live in his apartment

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vivalatinamerica:

finehs:

kyotosunrises:

pendulum-sonata:

That the aztecs never thought that the Spanish conquerers were gods, there are no registries of any prehispanic gods with blond hair, pale skin or any european trait, the only reason why they were well received was because Moctezuma distrusted them from the beggining and wanted them gone as soon as possible and he thought that by treating them well he would avoid stirring conflict.

The “indigenous people revered them as gods” was Spanish propaganda, so congratulations centuries after people are still falling for it.

Also the only reason they won, besides the diseases they brought with them, was because they deceived the other indigenous tribes under the rule of the Aztec empire into thinking that they would give them their freedom.

Spoiler alert: they lied.

OP can you please include a source of where you found this? Not saying it in a way that I don’t believe you or something. Just want something to back this argument if I present it to people. And yes, I am googling it but I can’t find anything. Yes I can read Spanish so if you have a Spanish academic source that’ll do too!

Burying the White Gods: New Perspectives on the Conquest of Mexico by Camila Townsend is a good place to start.

here’s a link to that article! thank you @finehs !

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justbread32:

a bunch of aizawa and one (1) clumsy insomniac child

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lesbianshadowcat:

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flametype:

some of you have never spent 100 years frozen in an iceberg while the world you were responsible for protecting fell to war and it shows

some of you have never been painfully disfigured by your own father at the tender age of 14 in response to an simple misstep and it shows

some of you were never forced to invent metalbending as your only escape from a hostage situation and it shows 

some of you have never lost your first love when she gave up her physical form to become the spirit of the moon and it shows

some of you have never confronted the man that murdered your mother by turning the rain above him into ice daggers only to give up your pursuit for vengeance out of pity and self-love and it shows

some of you have never been raised to believe that you are an unloveable monster and that your enemy is your own brother rather your evil father who carefully groomed you to be his greatest weapon and it shows

some of you have never lost your entire livelihood due to a group of rowdy teenagers’ recklessness and complete disregard for the value of cabbages and it shows

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joshpeck:

angelwarm:

angelwarm:

i hope that one day i will finally be ok….i’ll make a cherry pie when it is all over

today is the day

reblog the cherry pie to be ok

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